a cold winter day... no snow. what if it snowed today? would i walk down the streets again like i did before? would i listen to tori or alanis? would i dream again? no... i don't feel like i want snow. i don't feel like i want to walk down the streets all alone, without feeling any cold but with warmth iside myself.
i'm not the same anymore. i'm not interested in anything anymore except from psychology... hm, and also books.
i had a very weird dream last night. well, i know that it was the result of my thoughts that i was writing in my diary just before closing my eyes. it was scary and sad but also sweet. it was about someone who taught me the most in my life. i don't know her for a very long time but some sentences that she said made all the difference. those 2-3 sentences changed my view about life, about people. and maybe i'll never see her again. i don't care. the most important thing is to believe that she's healthy and calm and noone makes her angry. she gave me more in those 3 months than anybody else in many years.
...maybe she'll read this one day or maybe not. i'd just like to thank her for everything she did for me though she doesn't even know how her words changed me...
yeah, last night, my dream. i've heard she had left armenia. i don't know if it's true or not. in my dreams she was back to armenia, working in our uni. i saw her wearing black. dunno why... i hugged her and cried. dunno why... maybe i missed her. maybe i missed her kindness and honesty...
who can guess who was she? hehe, no, i'm not in love with her. i'm just amazed...