it's more than 2 months i haven't seen him. more than 2 months i haven't felt his breath.
not in contact, not a letter...
not an email... he didn't reply to my last email which i sent about a month ago. not a phone call... i'm not going to call him as i'm not going to be the only one who thinks about our so-called friendship.
where's he? haven't heard from him after the last email i received from him. it's so weird. i noticed it yesterday. i hadn't heard from him for ages and i didn't even care about it. does he care? does he think about me? does he miss me? what's he doing now? and he told me that he's going to save our friendship, our amazing friendship.
yeah, it was yesterday... this autumn... it reminds me of him soooo much... it was a year ago that i loved him more than ever. it was a year ago that i hated him more than ever. and i wanted to see him suddenly. i was curious. 2 months are too much for not seeing each other. i can't remember any other 2 months without seeing him (except from the time i was in paris). yeah, and i remembered... all those wonderful moments... i wanted to bring them back. it was last october... we were walking together. i had a feeling that i had never had before. it was like i was going to fall. it was like i was his only friend and he needed me. i needed him even more. holding each other's hands... i remember every moment of that wonderful hour, one hour. yeah, i remember all those things that were wonderful.
do i still love him? no, i love the love i had before. i miss that love, i don't miss him. there was noone so wonderful like him. i was too stupid for understanding it earlier, before losing any contact with him.

i was walking to uni in the morning. the autumn sun, the clouds, the breeze... they reminded of him so much. everything. where's he? what's he doing? does he need me? i needed him at that moment so much. oh, stupid me. how didn't i guess? he has forgotten me... HE HAS FORGOTTEN ME...